dehydration.

is it possible to forget something that really bothers you?
have you ever had a secret that you are even afraid of telling to yourself?
and have you ever told this vast information to someone who is the most irrelevant both to you and to the subject. do you see this person around a lot? if no, you may think that it is not a big deal, you might not see them for sometime and totally forgot that you told them, but the second you bump up to them, the second it is a Damn-big deal. this encounter, at first will seem to you as just a coincidence but the moment you understand that it is not, this thought makes you want to puke. or even makes you go puke, not kiddin, you just leave the place and throw-up in the middle of the first deserted road you find. it is not finished. did you think you can get away with just emptying your guts? of course not, you wont be able to sleep nor think about anything else but just the fear of the secret to be spread.

yeah if you have experienced or think that you can experience half of the things that has been just narrated, you may diagnose yourself as paranoiac.
get over yourself and go to sleep.

black.

" so what's next?
nothing, it's just over. "

they were standing next to their mother's dead body, both exhausted watching her die. it was the first time they saw each other after 6 years. they've both changed a lot. so as their mother. at least they thought so seeing her bald head. an anonymous call disturbed them early in the morning and both of them arrived to the white, ghostly entrance of the hospital right around the same time. not knowing what to feel made them even feel worse. living in the same city with your mom and brother and not seeing them for six-damn years.

it took her exactly six more hours to pass away after she saw her sons. they didn't talk much, what was there to talk for if you're even embarassed to breathe.

" i am taking off.
yeah, hope to see you in my deathbed too. "